lordie

so. recent events here in the lovely beach town have made me revisit the question, yet again, of WHY I AM SO AFRAID OF RELIGIOUS PEOPLE. and it turns out - its not even religious ZEALOUTS but just religious PEOPLE about whom, before you know their clean little secret, you might even be saying to yourself "MAN this person's cool" or "what is so different and refreshing about this person? i can't quite place it..." and then it comes out, somehow in some way, that they're intensely religious - on some not-so-obvious-at-first level. i have no idea yet why i still freak out at the use of the capital H in "doing His will" and "serving Him" (the gender thing? what, no female gods? wtf?) - but i think i'm getting closer on the whole general-fear-of religiosos issue: Since no one on this earth can say with any certainty exactly what or who God is and/or how any of us really got here, etc. - anyone who declares their god as the ONE god and who judges those that don't follow theirs, kinda instantly becomes an a-hole. don't you think? seriously. i swear humans LOOK for ways to distance themselves from others - to turn other humans (with whom it's an unfathomable miracle you even share the same TIME on this planet much less that you share geography and a language, blahblahblah) into the strangest strangers possible. i think i do it too. OR, there's the urge for us to make everyone else just like us. that's, i guess, the flip side. it's bizarre. how did *different* come to so naturally mean "scary" or "wrong"? we're wierd. and i'm kinda wierd for posting this on a saturday night. but i feel some small obligation to keep this blog occasionally-updated, and this is what's on my mind tonight. oki doki? okay then.