ghostland

hi. i'm in santa cruz now - and boy is it wierd. i mean the town is as wierd or as normal as ever, it's just ME who feels wierd IN IT. it is strange to be no longer a part of something/somewhere/of your friends' daily lives - nor to be a part of anywhere else yet either. very disconcerting for a creature of habit like myself. i don't think i have any new pix for ya, but i'll see if i can dig up an old interesting one. just had lunch with one of my favorite people ever - mr. Don Palermini. he treated me to a delicious plate of tofu chilaquiles at the amazing and undervisited-by-me Walnut Cafe in downtown sc, and then we ambled around in the shady cold and over to the Goodwill - where don bought an old mechanic's jacket with a Hertz patch on it and i bought some slip-on shoes for use in aFREAK. they're a little big, but i saved $80!!

yeah i can't believe i'm saying this out loud - but i'm starting to look forward to the day when i actually WORK again. (horrors!) i didn't think it would come to this - but it is going on nearly a year that i'm work-free. and it is a ster-RANGE feeling. or maybe it's not work per se that i'm looking forward to, but rather the ritual of a normal life - in a place that feels like YOUR TOWN with YOUR PEOPLE in it. i look forward to that. to discovering a new place, one coffeeshop and one running trail at a time. portland?? is it you??

here's a dog that showed up at my brother's house before i left. he was so damn cute and totally adopted me as his new mome in the 2 hours that we were hanging out. i can't wait to have a dog.

oh so i rewatched My Dinner with Andre - a great film from 1981 starring Wallace Shawn and Andre Gregory (and ONLY them) wherein they have a discussion over dinner. for 2 hours. a pretty fascinating and philosophical discussion. i'd seen it before, when i was 23 or 24 - and it had new and cooler meaning to my 36 y.o. self. it's fun to simply be a witness to a conversation sometimes - rather than an active participant in it.

alright, i'm tired. i'm headed to social appointment #3 of 4 today, here in a few minutes. i can't wait to have a bed of my own again. it's nice seeing old (and newish) friends, but it does feel WIERD to be in a town that feels like history to you. alright. bye for now.